VISIT MORE OFTEN = 4 months instead of 2 years. This reminds me of something I once heard before. Which is better? Being Deep or deeper? The immediate response would be deeper. Because deep-er is suppose more. But deeper is a relative word, it is based on what was already there in the first place. If you were shallow, deeper might be deeper than shallow, but it would not necessarily mean deeper than deep. If that foundation is not there, say you want to go further, deeper, better would not mean much. Instead, aim for deep, far and great. Those words that carry their own weight itself.
Opps...here I am off what I actually wanted to write about again. Let's see...Firstly, I am glad that I am still writing. Although its rather writing without much planning, I feel the plot coming out as I write. I won't say its good or anything, just that I enjoy writing it. And writing, the thought process, choosing what to put in, especially for a long novel-like piece reflects what you think and belief. Its unlike compositions written in schools which were about a 500 words max. But because this requires is long term and non-examinable, and you can chose to write anything in the world you want...you review yourself. It shows what you have been thinking about, your views on certain topics etc. 4 months...10 chapters mostly written on the train since I have not much time to spar. But I look forward to Mid-April where I would have more time due to certain circumstances =)
But for the past few weeks and the next few weeks to come, I would most prob be hanging low. I don't know how to descried my condition. Jaded? It's like this elongated sense of tiredness. It's not like your emotions go up and down the extremes, it just stays moderately low. And I know that I am not alone in this struggle. Most of the students from my year are feeling this way. This is the last lap of the race for most of us, yet I just can't find the motivation to put in my 100% and just complete it. For me, I have chosen to take this extra year to get a nicer degree and see if I am cut out for doing research work. But after coming in, I learned that I am not cut out for that and would probably not do something related to my degree for that matter. A degree is important in this world especially for my country and I have almost direct access to obtained it from young. It was the only expectation I had. And just as well because I was good academically and that was considered good since science and technology stuff was view as more important than (Although soft skills are also termed important now). But more and more I realized that my heart was in. But just 2 more months...2 more months till the completion of all I have been working for. Than...
Speaking of which where my heart lies. I don't dare to say it definitely because I am still lacking much. But it has to be dwelling with people. That's where my gift lies although seriously I used to be so socially awkward before. Hmm..at this point in time, I do not know of the exact path that I would take. But I will carry on heading towards that direction till I find it.
So long for now blog...
